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August 1, 1999:
Today was weigh-in day! I'm down another 2 pounds for a total of 46!!!!! I'm currently at 308 pounds, so that makes 9 more before I can "lose the 3". I'm determined to make it before the trip!! I have 5 more weeks. I can do this!!
I felt so guilty about the exercise, because I hadn't exercised in 4 days. Well, today I did Tae-Bo and I feel so much better!! I wish I could remember this feeling and that it would motivate me when I don't feel like getting off my butt. I enjoy Tae-Bo once I get into it. It's starting out that's the problem.
I made this a "cheat day" for eating. I had a cheeseburger for lunch. And pizza for dinner. And two brownies. Needless to say I'm over on my calories and fat, but I'll make up for it the rest of the week!
August 6, 1999:
I've been doing much better with the exercise this week. I did the Basic Tae-Bo tape 4 days in a row, and the Advanced Tae-Bo tape (which I ordered this week in one of my more insane moments) once! The advanced tape was HARD!! It makes the basic tape seem easy! Today my back and shoulders are aching so I'm taking a couple days off from the exercise.
A couple months ago I bought a new sundress for the cruise. It was a size 22, which is good considering that back in March I had trouble fitting into a 28. When I bought it, I could still see my sides bulging out, but I bought it anyway, figuring that I would lose more weight before I left on the trip. Today I was feeling pretty good about myself because I can see more weight loss when I look in the mirror. So I tried the dress on again and it fit perfectly!! I'm so excited! Two more days till my weigh-in, and I KNOW I lost this week! I can feel it!!
August 8, 1999:
It's weigh-in day again, and I'm down 2 more for a total of 48!! I'm at 306. Just 7 more to lose in order to make my goal of 299 before the trip! I've been thinking about something lately, though. Once I make the 299 by September 5th, what am I going to have to keep me going? I've been pretty pumped because I have a weight, a date, and an event to work towards. So what happens after the trip? I guess I just keep plugging away.
I didn't do Tae-Bo again today. I HAVE to do it tomorrow, though! NO EXCUSES!! My back still hurt today, but should be fine tomorrow.
August 9, 1999:
I finally got back to doing Tae-Bo today. The basic tape seemed easy after struggling with the Advanced tape last week!! I felt extremely tired this morning and had a bad headache, so I was debating whether or not to work out. But I feel much better now that I have. Amazing!
I have an agreement with some of my online support buddies that I won't touch the scale again until August 22nd. This will be interesting!! So my next weigh-in won't be until then. Other than that, things are going well. I had talking candy bars at work again yesterday, but I told them to SHUT UP and they did!! I guess you just have to know how to talk back to the candy bars - hahaha.
August 10, 1999:
I had a HORRIBLE day at work. Each time I thought nothing else bad could happen, something else bad happened. I'm so depressed about my job. I have to get over this because this is no way to be thinking when you're on the verge of a promotion. Oh, well. I suppose it will pass in time.
As far as food goes, I had one of my best days yet. I'm doing so well with controlling my emotional eating, and days like today is a real test of that. Instead of eating, I decided to work on my weight loss web site. Today was a scheduled day off from Tae-Bo because of an appointment I had. I'll get back into that tomorrow - NO EXCUSES. Tomorrow can only be better.
August 11, 1999:
Today was definitely better! Yesterday was just extremely emotional, for a number of reasons. I felt much more positive today. I ate pretty well, drank FIVE liters of water (I was thirsty!), and did Tae-Bo. I didn't feel like doing Tae-Bo today, but I did it anyway. And I'm glad I did! I had a lot more energy afterwards. I still think my problem with exercise is starting it. Once I start it, I'm fine. But I have to make myself get off my butt and do it!
August 15, 1999:
I didn't weigh in this morning because of the agreement we have on the Metabolife board. We're not going to weigh ourselves until August 22nd. I did try on my green dress yesterday that I'm wearing for the Captain's dinner on the cruise and it fit great! I've been doing pretty good with food and "okay" with exercise. I exercised 3 times this past week. I hope my work schedule will get back to normal, so I am going to try for a minimum of 5 days of Tae-Bo this week. I'm still drinking over a gallon of water a day, though - no matter what!
August 17, 1999:
I've been stressing over a situation at work to the point that I have non-stop headaches every day and I feel sick to my stomach. Well, no more!! I refuse to make myself sick about this anymore. It's not worth it, but I am!
I did Tae-Bo yesterday, but today was a scheduled day off. I've been doing really well with food (except for the pizza I had on Sunday, but that's okay), and I'm getting better at limiting my fat grams. I was really tempted by chocolate today, but I managed to resist. Maybe I'll allow myself a piece of chocolate this Sunday after I weigh in. And as usual, it's WATER, WATER, WATER!! I can't get enough of the stuff!
August 20, 1999:
I admit it - I've been neglecting the journal! I want to write in here every day. And starting today I will. My excuse, of course, is stress. Stress from work. But isn't that the whole point of having this journal? So I can write in it when I'm stressed? Oh, well. I will do better - I promise!
I've also been neglecting my Tae-Bo tapes. I wonder if Billy Blanks misses me? I've got to get back to those starting tomorrow.
I was looking at the M&M's at work today again, but I resisted. Maybe it is time for me to allow myself some chocolate - on Sunday. Not ALL the chocolate in the world, but maybe a half a bag of M&M's. Problem is, what do I do with the other half?
Only 16 more days till my cruise!!!! I'm getting SO excited!! I weigh in on Sunday for the first time in 2 weeks, and I just KNOW I'm closer to that goal of 299. How much closer? I don't know, but I am definitely closer! I can feel it!
August 21, 1999:
I did Tae-Bo today! YEAH!!! Can I do it tomorrow? And the next day? And the next day? Of course I can, but the question is WILL I do it? I'm just going to concentrate on tomorrow and see where that leads me.
Speaking of tomorrow … it's WEIGH-IN DAY!!!!! There's a free bottle of Metabolife riding on this one! Tomorrow morning, everyone will know who won the "bet". Today I bought some M&M's to eat tomorrow. After the weigh-in, of course. I haven't had any chocolate in 2 months, so I think it's time. The M&M's have been talking to me all day, but I just told them to shut up! :-)
August 22, 1999:
Down to 301 today!!! That makes it a total of 53 pounds, and just 2 more to go before I'm at 299! I'm so happy! I did Tae-Bo again today for the second day in a row, and tomorrow I'm going to go for 3 in a row! I also ate my M&M's today. It's funny, though - they didn't taste as good as I expected them to. Strange!!
I passed up some goals! One was 304, which is a total loss of 50 pounds. The other was 303, which corresponds to being 1/4 of the way to my goal! I've been thinking about what to set as my next goal. Depending on what my weight is on 9/5/99 (cruise day), I'm going to figure out how much I "should" weigh by my birthday (November 28) based on a loss of 2 pounds per week, and take it from there. I also decided that I'm going to be at my goal weight of 150 pounds by my 30th birthday!
August 24, 1999:
I haven't done Tae-Bo since Sunday. Today was a scheduled day off, but what's my excuse for yesterday????? Well, I felt kind of sick to my stomach. Good reason, I suppose. But tomorrow it's back to Tae-Bo!! NO EXCUSES! I keep saying this! One day I'm actually going to do it!
Other than that, things are going well. I ate my chocolate on Sunday and got back on plan. Yesterday my mother asked me if I wanted some M&M's (I bought her some, too) and I refused them. I was pretty proud of myself! Also doing well with my water. Work is not as stressful this week as it was last week, but I did work my butt off yesterday! That kind of makes up for not doing Tae-Bo, but not quite.
August 25, 1999:
I did Tae-Bo today! YAY!! 'Nuff said.
August 26, 1999:
A couple exciting things happened today. First of all, two different people told me that I am looking great! I was beginning to wonder when my 53 pounds would be noticeable to others. I mean, I started to notice my own weight loss after I had lost 30 pounds! It's always harder to notice it on yourself than it is for others to notice it on you. Maybe they were just afraid to say anything because they didn't want to embarrass me. Believe me, it won't embarrass me! The compliments make me feel great!
Also, I ordered a pant suit from QVC and I got it yesterday. It's a size 3X. Well, it was too big! Next time I will order the 2X. I'm just so used to getting the biggest size in hopes that I will be able to fit into it. There's not enough time to send it back and get a smaller size, so my Mom took it in (quite a bit!) for me and it fits great now.
As a result, I am actually starting to FEEL thinner. Not only am I seeing the weight loss (on the scale and in the mirror), but I can feel it now. And it's a GREAT feeling! I wouldn't trade it for anything.
August 28, 1999:
I know I didn't write in here yesterday, but things are going well! My weigh-in is tomorrow, and this is a significant weigh-in because I just KNOW that I am going to lose the stupid "3" at the beginning of my weight! Just think - I will never again have to say that I am "three hundred and something" pounds! This will be the first time in almost 8 years that I am in the 200's! IT'S SOOOOOO EXCITING!!! And most of all, I'm going to make it one week ahead of schedule! I was hoping to make it to 299 before my trip, and my trip is still a week away.
I did Tae-Bo yesterday and today. Up until today, I've always had to stop in the middle of doing a set of the moves and rest before I could get back into it. Well, today I proved to myself that it was all in my head - that I could do all the reps if I really wanted to! I can honestly say that for the very first time, I did every single rep of every single set on the Basic Tae-Bo tape! I did it! I CAN do it! I was telling myself that I couldn't, and that's why I had to keep stopping. In fact, today I wanted to stop a couple times, but I made myself keep going. It really is all in your head. If you really think you can do it, then you will do it! That's why I know I'm going to make it to my goal this time. I know that I CAN do it!
August 29, 1999:
Well, I am down 2 more pounds this week, for a total loss of 55 pounds since 3/7/99! So that means I'm at 299!
WAIT A MINUTE!!!!!! Did I say 299?????? Yeah, I guess I did! LOL!! That's right - today is the day that I get to say GOODBYE FOREVER STUPID "3" AND I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN!!!!!! I'm soooooooo excited and happy! I can not even begin to express how I'm feeling in this journal! I am under 300 for the first time in almost 8 years, and I feel wonderful!!! Back in March, I never thought I would make it this far. Well, I have made it this far, and now I KNOW I can make it to my final goal! By the way, I have set a new mini-goal: 275 by my birthday, 11/28/99.
August 31, 1999:
Well, here we are - the last day of the month! That means that I'll be starting a new journal page tomorrow. It also means that I only have FIVE MORE DAYS till my cruise!!
I got a late start today because last night one of my employees called me at 9 pm. She was sick, so I had to go in and cover the store until we closed at 11 pm. I got up today at 8 am, went to work, and got started on my end of month paperwork. So what does this have to do with my weight loss? I didn't eat breakfast! I did better the rest of the day, though. I even did Tae-Bo - every rep of every exercise again! Now that I know I can do it, I have no excuse not to do it!